I look around and i feel so alone and afraid. Everything i have know in the last seven months is gone. With my heart, that has been torn out and exposed. I feel so vulnerable and cold. Shaking in fear of not knowing what maybe next, and which way to turn. Or who to turn to. My tears falling in sync with the rain outside. I am trying so hard to regain myself and bounce back. But this is a pain I never experienced..and do not know how to fix. Love and then love lost and shattered. I need a remedy. I sit alone here and just think of getting the hell out here. Used and worn out. The agony almost too much for to take any longer. I comtemplate and escape, a release . God please help me. I dont know what do or say anymore. I feel like a robot smiling when needed to avoid the looks and questions. This is my cry out to you..as long as it has taken I am here so please help me.